I had forgotten how invested I used to be
In those late night
IM dramas
Climactic almost-confessions
Disparaging conditionalities
The nightly flirtation of adolescent
Might-have-beens
‘N3t slang su11ying my reput4tion
4 syntactical prowess
Longstreet to Lee
Gravity demands conflicting armies
Crash in a burst of sanguine sacrifice
A fleshly offering too expensive
To be divinely endorsed
Conscience pleads conservation
While honor commands we duel to the death
Valorious though you are, Sir
Preservation mandates defense!
Lee to Longstreet
The enemy is here
Confronting us
NOW
The enemy is here and now we must strike!
There are no more reinforcements coming!
There is no excuse for our flight!
We fight here
Now
With these men
In these skins
We fight
HERE.
Rare glance
Subtle chance
Strumming of unquelled intimacy
Momentary flare
Constricting stare
Blazing magnesium pathos
I would discard this body
If I could
In a single tentative heartleap
I would discard this uncouth body
I would discard this faltering facade
I would discard this sensual illusion
Azure eyes and inherited vulnerabilities
I would discard this body
If I could
Exist extra-corporeally.
The problem is
I always begin
Anxiously
Casually
Conspiratorially
The problem is
There are too many problems
And I complain about them
Too often
The problem is
My own anxiety
My own conspiracy
Paranoia
The problem is
My mouth.
