Lindsay’s Scribblings

Desire I can write of
Fury just the same
But Love
Love
My pen tarnishes thy name

The ink heart on my hand bleeds
And I want it to bleed
Into you
To Impress you
Imprint you
Meld you
Mine
With a single
Spasmodic squeeze

The ink heart on my hand bleeds
Like I will
If you leave.

Everyone who knew me,
 knew.
You knew me too,
didn’t you?

‘Twixt you and I,
nothing should ever intercede -
not conspiring mothers,
not pernicious lovers,
not distance,
not time,
not cloth.
‘Twixt you and I,
nothing should ever intervene.

Oh, my love
This lust
Is not well-intentioned
Not innocent
Not sweet
Oh, my love
This lust
Demands satiation
Immediate and
Indiscreet.

Rumors are vicious
But people are worse
Suspicious
Seditious
Perverse
Calumny is vicious
But gossips are worse

You follow him.
Follow him everywhere
And always have.
You follow him
Follow him everywhere:
Dog-tailing your prince charming
But never keeping his pace.
I accompany him
Stroll with him
Converge with his path
We converge
And yet you follow.

I would swallow you with my eyes
I would seduce you with my words
I would tempt you with my vocabulary
I would kiss you with my hands
I would consume you, complete you, consummate you
If only I was allowed to talk to you at all.

If you read this
And you don’t like it –
Walk away.
If you read this
And you don’t like it –
Stumble to another page.
If you read this
And you don’t like it –
The liability is yours.

You must be stronger than I
You don’t need to absorb my image
Soak it in
The way I need to absorb you
And your mind
And your competence
You must be stronger than I
You don’t need to memorize my face
Urgently memorialize it
The way I need to memorize you
And your hands
And your lips
You must be stronger than I
You can look away